on haircuts and bangs


I have the hardest time these days choosing a haircut. My mom used to be a hairdresser, and up until college, I would change my haircut and style at least every year. I had the asymmetrical bob, the Katie Holmes cut, Zooey Deschanel's thick bangs, the stacked bob, the blunt razored style of Hayley Williams even--you name it, I had it. 

But lately, I've been pretty stagnant in my haircuts. When I got to college a few years ago, everyone had the same long hair, no bangs, Victoria Secret curls--and I was growing out my Hayley Williams cut (don't worry, my hair was not orange). But it was one of the first times I felt insecure about my hair. 

So I let it grow out. Almost to my ribcage. By summer 2011, it was long, healthy, super curly, and I felt pretty. (summer 2011 hair below--please disregard slight boobage!)

But then last summer, I got bored and chopped it all off--only to hate it. I actually almost cried when I saw how short it was, which is so strange for me because I'm usually fearless when it comes to my hair. But I was annoyed that I couldn't pull it in a ponytail when I was hot, I hated having to style it every morning, and I didn't feel pretty (summer 2012 hair below).


It's been more than a year now since the cut, and it's pretty long. But it doesn't look anything like it did in summer 2011. I just don't know what to do with it anymore. I don't know if it's my shampoo, the Floridian heat, the fact that I haven't had it trimmed in 18 months, or a combination. I can't even remember what shampoo I used in 2011. 

I don't want to go that short again, but I do like Alice Gao's shoulder-length bob. My hair is just really thick and has a loose curl to it, that I'm afraid the blunt cut will look triangular and frizzy on me. But I have to do something soon. I'm also really attached to my bangs and a bit afraid to grow them out.....

My hair is driving me nuts. Do you ever feel this way?